Welcome to an article aimed at bringing awareness of eating disorders and their long-lasting effects on their victims. Please be warned, this journal contains sensitive material that may be triggering to some.
Ten confessions from a victim of EDNOS
If you don't know what EDNOS is feel free to read this journal, or visit this link.
Ten confessions from a victim of EDNOS
If you don't know what EDNOS is feel free to read this journal, or visit this link.- I can't look at myself in a full-body mirror, it makes me feel so ashamed that I start crying, and refuse to leave my house.
- I go through periods where I stop eating, if I break and binge, I punish myself by making myself vomit, or hurting myself in some other way.
- I like the feeling of dizziness I get from not eating for multiple days. It feels like success to me. Like I'm actually accomplishing something, and it's the only thing I'm ever proud of myself for.
- Everyone says I'm tiny, but I see them as too scared to tell me the truth.
- Not one day goes by without me obsessing about my weight, and the way I look.
- I'm technically in recovery for EDNOS, but I miss how thin I was at the height of my 'illness'.
- It's still hard for me to see myself as being 'ill'.
- I don't blame anyone for the way I feel about myself, it's nobody's fault but mine.
- I love people of all shapes and sizes, just not myself.
- While I want to be better, it makes me depressed to think about the fact that I must sacrifice what I see as beautiful, to be 'healthy' and 'happy'.
Note from the deviant: I don't mean to trigger anyone, or make anyone feel like an eating disorder is appealing, it is not, and should never be. Please view my confessions as something that you would never want to be able to say about yourself and your life.
If you are suffering from an eating disorder, or think you might be, please seek professional help 
